What IS Christmas for?

I have been in the Christmas spirit lately and am eagerly waiting to put up the tree. I always thought Christmas was for celebrating and having fun... that was only a few years ago. But now I see how Christmas is so many different things all at the same time. I look back at the years before when we had Christmas. And I can't believe how many things have changed since then. My emotions have changed so much! I think of the world so differently than I did. I thought everything was all fun and that there was nothing else to life... except the daily chores and things like that. But I now I see that there is SO much to learn and do and realize. Sometimes I am over-whelmed with the thoughts that crowd my head about my life. So many emotions trying to tug me away from the world. Sometimes I think it would be nice to not have any of these hard thoughts and emotions I can't understand... but then what would we do? We would be lifeless, hopeless, and boring creatures.
So now when Christmas comes I realize it's a time for family, love, and memories. I try to think back through the year that has just closed... what have I done? Have I done anything that people will remember me by? Was it good? Should I be happy about what I did? Knowing that I did something to help someone and that they will remember me by it is so important to me. I live on having people trust me and know that I can do something. I couldn't live if I knew that when I died no one would miss me because I never did anything to make a difference in their lives.
So now is when I think about these things... about all the things I have left behind... and all things I am going to do and learn.

Here is one of my favorite songs that I listen to a lot... River by Sarah McLachlan

 

 

Here is another version of it...

 

 

Lyrics ~

 

"River"

It's coming on Christmas
They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
But it don't snow here
It stays pretty green
I'm going to make a lot of money
Then I'm going to quit this crazy scene
I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I made my baby cry

He tried hard to help me
You know, he put me at ease
And he loved me so naughty
Made me weak in the knees
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I'm so hard to handle
I'm selfish and I'm sad
Now I've gone and lost the best baby
That I ever had
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river
I made my baby say goodbye

It's coming on Christmas
They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
I wish I had a river
I could skate away on

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